Browsed through all my past entries since 2007 and was quite amazed by what I had been through. The sweetness I once had with someone special.. how we met, undergo everything were amazing.
I’ve always thought that if only everything could be so pure and innocent and part of our brain could maintain that naiveness could be something advantageous to the way we all live as a human being in this pathetically cruel world. Sometimes you are fated to meet someone but on the other hand, you realized that things are not destined to be. No matter how much you wish for something to turn out great.. or be positive about… it never really happens the way you want it to be. The more you expect, the least you will receive. I feel a tremendous heartache when something happened almost a month ago, but I never like to show it out at all. I wasn’t feeling in my utmost positive ways… but I still manage to live my life normal.
Fairytale’s always a fairytale and when things have turned out bad enough, we can only move forward and face it bravely. Although the pain’s there.. although the sadness’s there.. although you’d probably feel wasted.. although it takes forever to heal… although……
We still have to adapt and live with it.
Sometimes I just so wish I could have someone to rely on forever. Someone whom I can share my whole sorrows and happiness with. I used to have that but it didn’t last. Humans are selfish, isn’t it? We’ll never learn to really appreciate what’s surrounding us until we actually lose it.
I feel depress at times.. but nonetheless, I’ll never let it affect my work and performance (hopefully)… I guess all Man should learn to be appreciative and live life to the fullest.
Peace. Pray hard I will survive if another predicted typhoon’s here again these few days.